Grad School Update

clockI am pretty sure that, besides needing time to evaluate all applicants, graduate school programs make you wait so long between application deadlines and acceptance because they want to make you think. I think sometimes people get swept up in the idea of graduate school and should they make it through the applications and get accepted in to their schools within weeks of each other there is a lack of thinking opportunities.

I have heard nothing back from my schools yet but the longer I wait the more I am forced to evaluate my decision to go back to school. These past few weeks have been particularly difficult for me as I work my jobs and watch the money come in and go right back out again. I worry: are we going to be able to financially cut graduate school?  As I think about something someone said to me a few weeks ago: “if you don’t like it there’s nothing you can do, you’ve made a commitment, an educational and financial commitment. You won’t be able to afford to move back if you don’t like it there…” I have to second guess myself. Now those words were said out of concern but to be honest they petrified me. Of course I have thought about these things before, of course I know them but hearing them come from someone elses lips knock you down a few confidence levels.

Confidence. Confidence is something that everyone pursuing a graduate career needs both in themselves and from other people because let me tell you, especially as an older “non-traditional” student, you already feel a notch below others in your confidence in making such a drastic change in your life. As a fresh undergraduate you have the whole world before you, you want to make wild changes and shake things up a bit. As an older student it sometimes feels like your last chance to become someone you have always wanted to be but the changes you need to get there, well, they feel pretty daunting.

I don’t know when I will hear from my schools, although I am assured that it will be somewhere between now and mid-March but I certainly wish they’d hurry up because my fingers have been crossed for so long that they’re beginning to turn blue and if one more person dares to ask me if I’m “really sure” that this is what I want to do…well, I might end up in the county jail instead.

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6 Responses to “Grad School Update”

  1. 1
    Nicole says:

    It’s true, grad school is a big commitment, and definitely should not be a rash decision. I agree that a team of people too cheer and boost confidence is essential too (especially on those days where I wonder what on earth I was thinking doing grad studies with two young kids). On the flip side, I find the actual content of the studies so much more interesting and in-depth than my undergrad. And, as an older student, I find I appreciate the opportunity to pursue higher education, much more than I did in my undergrad days.

    Best of luck as you wait for news of your acceptance!!
    .-= Nicole´s last blog ..Nature Clean Giveaway! =-.

    • Amy says:

      It’s so nice to have cheerleaders for sure and I completely agree that education when you’re older is so much more rewarding and interesting than when you are younger!

      Thanks for the luck Nicole!

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    Karie says:

    Oh Amy, if there is a will there is a way. Maybe you need to hear that! Life is all about choices and you always have a choice, an option, they may not be the best, the prettiest, but they are a choice we can make. Hang in there….I need to email you too….been so crazy and I know how your crazy is feeling too….sending you hugs my friend!
    .-= Karie´s last blog ..Until We Meet Again =-.

    • Amy says:

      You bet your butt I’m going to make a way 😀 Come hell or high water I will get what I want out of this life!

      Sending big hugs right back at ya!

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    Queen Bee says:

    I disagree COMPLETELY with that statement!!! If you make the decision, move there, pay for school and realize it ISN’T what you want, then you stop. You decide what you want to do and do that instead. Will it cost you? Sure. Nothing in life is free, and many of life’s lessons seem to be costly ones. But this is YOUR LIFE and you are free to do as you please. Do not be scared away from school because it costs money! GO AFTER YOUR DREAMS!!! I remember HATING college the first month or so. I remember hating each new job I took, fearful of change. Pushing past those first few weeks, I settled in nicely and learned to love it. Don’t you dare stop chasing that dream due to fear! Money comes and money goes. You can’t take it with you, so spend it now on what makes you happy. You WILL excel in grad school and don’t you dare doubt yourself!! You are spectacularly wonderful. You are accomplishing what most people cannot. You have the drive and the brain power to do this, I tell no lies!! You are absolutely one of my most smart and intuitive friends. Do NOT settle out of fear!!! (RE: my personal life….. uh-huh. Never settle out of fear of the future and what it holds!!!) YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! And those who love you are here to BACK YOU every step of the way!!

    • Amy says:

      You are the single best friend any girl could ask for and you know I’m dragging you out with me wherever I go 😀

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